So, I have been undergoing some major changes in my life and I am slowly learning to embrace them. One of my major foundations has recently been shaken: what do I want to do with my life???
Consequently, I have to redefine my standards and definitions of success.
Allow me to elaborate.
I used to think that being able to tell people that you were going to the most prestigious school around and planning to do something academically spectacular with your life was successful. I truly thought that that was "making something out of yourself".
Imagine my shock when, not a year later, I find myself telling people that I am planning to attend the LOCAL COMMUNITY COLLEGE and then perhaps transfer. (I add that part in to alleviate the embarrassment of the first half of the statement).
And to be honest, I am not even sure of that anymore. Who's to say I can't be just as happy living in a trailer on a farm with my mom and riding horses every weekend? Seriously. My grandfather, whom I love and admire, has always reminded me OVER AND OVER to NEVER let anything get in my way of being successful. So i guess another facet of all this change is finding out ALL OVER AGAIN what I want in life. What will make me happy? Isn't that the age old question??? HERE WE GO!
Sincerely Seventeen, Jasmine :)
Wednesday, July 10, 2013
Life Lesson: Don't try too hard!
So, life has been teaching me some very monumental lessons lately. And it has slapped my upside the face with something. I try too hard.
I over-think things. I am way too into pleasing other people. I am always on the edge. But I am learning that I don't have to be that way. I can relax, and breathe, and just be myself.
Isn't that wonderful??? :)
Now I just have to learn how to do it!
But I won't try too hard!
Love,
Jasmine Jade
I over-think things. I am way too into pleasing other people. I am always on the edge. But I am learning that I don't have to be that way. I can relax, and breathe, and just be myself.
Isn't that wonderful??? :)
Now I just have to learn how to do it!
But I won't try too hard!
Love,
Jasmine Jade
Tuesday, July 9, 2013
New Again
"Save me" I've been saying lately...
My inner light has been stolen.
Now I am nothing.
My chest is empty, but my mind is full.
What have I become?
Yet, the oddest thing-
beauty in pain.
light from darkness.
life after death.
A flower delicately but confidently blooms from the devastation.
a new chance. a new start. all things new.
Like the calm after the storm, like the fragrance after the rain...
I will be new again.
more beautiful than ever before.
I just have to wait.
Until then...
Love, be strong, and always hope.
-Jasmine Jade
My inner light has been stolen.
Now I am nothing.
My chest is empty, but my mind is full.
What have I become?
Yet, the oddest thing-
beauty in pain.
light from darkness.
life after death.
A flower delicately but confidently blooms from the devastation.
a new chance. a new start. all things new.
Like the calm after the storm, like the fragrance after the rain...
I will be new again.
more beautiful than ever before.
I just have to wait.
Until then...
Love, be strong, and always hope.
-Jasmine Jade
Friday, April 12, 2013
Miserable and Magical
Well, this is my second day of being Beautiful Seventeen and I just want to let you know where I stand.
I am going through a metamorphsis right now. A huge metamorphosis. One that leaves you with whole lot of questions that you didn't have before, not many of the answers that you are searching for, and a bunch of insecurity that fills the traces left by your former rock-solid (or so you thought) identity. It is miserable. It is scary. And it has shaken me to the core.
But it's also magical. Since I have decided not to look at this process as death, but as life, it can actually be kind of exciting. Though there is a lot of turmoil going on inside, I take this as my chance to have a new beginning. To have a second chance at getting so many things right that went wrong the first time... I can be who I want to be. And that's pretty cool!
Don't get me wrong- I still have days when it seems hopeless! I feel like this will be the death of me, and it frustrates me... but I guess that it is all part of becoming something beautful. For now, I choose to have faith that someday, things will all work out- and I will be ok.
Happy, Free, Counfused, and Lonely at the same time!
Sincerely Seventeen,
Jasmine :)
I am going through a metamorphsis right now. A huge metamorphosis. One that leaves you with whole lot of questions that you didn't have before, not many of the answers that you are searching for, and a bunch of insecurity that fills the traces left by your former rock-solid (or so you thought) identity. It is miserable. It is scary. And it has shaken me to the core.
But it's also magical. Since I have decided not to look at this process as death, but as life, it can actually be kind of exciting. Though there is a lot of turmoil going on inside, I take this as my chance to have a new beginning. To have a second chance at getting so many things right that went wrong the first time... I can be who I want to be. And that's pretty cool!
Don't get me wrong- I still have days when it seems hopeless! I feel like this will be the death of me, and it frustrates me... but I guess that it is all part of becoming something beautful. For now, I choose to have faith that someday, things will all work out- and I will be ok.
Happy, Free, Counfused, and Lonely at the same time!
Sincerely Seventeen,
Jasmine :)
Tuesday, January 1, 2013
A beautiful butterfly
This little piece was written on 3/16-17 of 2012...
A butterfly is a beautiful being. It begins as a caterpillar... so full of hope and promise. Then, something happens...this little caterpillar knows it has to change. It is fearful, but it accepts the fact that it has to go through this. It begins to cover itself, weaving a cacoon around it's small, fragile body. It is protected now. Its is dormant and seemingly unfruitful. It begins to lose hope, wondering if it will ever break free and wake up. What will happen? What this precious creature can't see is that by going through this struggle, it is preparing itself to live, truly live, and take flight.
Finally...
Just when this little chrysalis begins to lose hope, a sliver of light breaks through. At last. A hope.
Something to hold on to! Something to rejoice in! Something to FOLLOW.
This soon-to-be beauty begins to wrestle with the layering of the old creature; slothing off a little at a time... each move revealing hope and a promise for light and beauty.
Suddenly...
A butterfly emerges. A new creation! Fresh to the world. Such a graceful being. More beautiful than ever before..
"For God so loved the world that he gave His only and unique Son, so that everyone who trusts in Him may have eternal life, instead of being utterly destroyed.
For God did not send the Son into the world to judge the world, but rather so that through Him,
the world might be saved."
-John 3:16-17
A butterfly is a beautiful being. It begins as a caterpillar... so full of hope and promise. Then, something happens...this little caterpillar knows it has to change. It is fearful, but it accepts the fact that it has to go through this. It begins to cover itself, weaving a cacoon around it's small, fragile body. It is protected now. Its is dormant and seemingly unfruitful. It begins to lose hope, wondering if it will ever break free and wake up. What will happen? What this precious creature can't see is that by going through this struggle, it is preparing itself to live, truly live, and take flight.
Finally...
Just when this little chrysalis begins to lose hope, a sliver of light breaks through. At last. A hope.
Something to hold on to! Something to rejoice in! Something to FOLLOW.
This soon-to-be beauty begins to wrestle with the layering of the old creature; slothing off a little at a time... each move revealing hope and a promise for light and beauty.
Suddenly...
A butterfly emerges. A new creation! Fresh to the world. Such a graceful being. More beautiful than ever before..
"For God so loved the world that he gave His only and unique Son, so that everyone who trusts in Him may have eternal life, instead of being utterly destroyed.
For God did not send the Son into the world to judge the world, but rather so that through Him,
the world might be saved."
-John 3:16-17
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